Baby #3, see I told you it was a good excuse!

Okay, so right after I told you that I was going to start blogging more I found that I was pregnant.  It's kind of amazing how much you forget about being pregnant.  Like, how crappy and tired you feel.  Yeah, it has been an ugly two months. It really hasn't been too bad compared to what others go through.  But for me who is used to feeling very healthy and strong, I was miserable.  I wanted to start back up and write down things about this pregnancy before I forget.  So my biggest thing that has changed is my appetite.  Oh my poor appetite. 
So I am a creature of habit BIG TIME!  I have had a protein shake for breakfast everyday for well over a year.  I loved it, I craved it and I was excited each morning to eat it.  Seriously, I make a wicked delicious protein shake.  I also have eaten the same thing for lunch every single day (almost).  Really though, I packed this salad on vacations I loved it so much.  If you aren't familiar with my infamous salad let me give you a quick run down.  It was carrots, cucumbers and tomatoes for the base of every salad and then I would add whatever other veggies I had.  Peas, brocolli, cauliflower, peppers, etc.  Avocado is also a must and then I would put cottage cheese on top with some salad supreme seasoning.  I would also add pretzels for crunch.  Seriously, I loved it, craved it and was excited it was lunch time every single day.  Amazing really but I LOVED it.  Around 6 weeks the thought of a protein shake and the veggie salad both sounded disgusting.  I can't even stomach the thought of them yet at 14 weeks.  I really, really, really hope my desire for both of those things comes back.  Oh and another thing that I used to LOVE but have completely lost my appetite for is Diet Coke.  Say what?!?!?!  I know, I was as shocked as you are.  I can't do any carbonation at all.  I miss it, I really, really miss it.  I even got one a couple of weeks ago just to see if I could do it and I couldn't.  I know it's better for the baby but I drank it the whole time with Ellie and she's fine so I'm really not anti drink diet coke when pregnant, although I know I probably should be.  So I have gone from eating well over 5 servings of vegetables a day to 0-.5.  It has gotten a little better the last couple of weeks but from weeks 6-11 ish, forget about it. 
I go through crazy cravings that last 1 day.  So one day I was craving meat so I go to Costco of all places.  (Hello, huge servings of meat).  I get a rotisserie chicken, 2 packs of good, thick sliced turkey and then a gigantic turkey breast thinking that I was going to be eating all of this quickly b/c it's all the sounds good.  Yeah, the next day the thought of all of it made me want to vomit.  I stuck most of it in the freezer hoping I can use it one day.  Still haven't.  That was a month and a half ago.
 Craving a giant container of bread and butter pickles?  Just go get yourself one and then leave it un opened for a solid month b/c it doesn't sound good anymore.  My pantry is literally full of crap that has sounded good one day and not the next or any days after. 
I have already gained a solid 15 pounds. Don't judge, I put anything I possible could stomach in my mouth to make it so I wasn't even more sick.  The best part of pregnancy is that I HAVE to eat or I get even more sick but literally NOTHING sounds good.  It's force feeding myself and I HATE, HATE, HATE it.  Seriously, isn't food supposed to be enjoyable? Yes, yes it is.  I think I have actually only gained 10 pounds of pregnancy so far.  I actually gained 5 pounds in January b/c this winter was cold, miserable, snowy and miserable, miserable, miserable.  I'm serious, I consider the fact that my children and I made it through this winter a huge blessing.  I really, really struggled. 

Our shed bit the dust this winter.  Building a new one this spring. 

I mean, how can looking at this crap month in and month out not get depressed? I really think I have SAD (seasonal affective disorder).  Dan tells me it's crap and I should just have a good attitude.  Oh really, pal?  Oh, that's right you aren't the one that is stuck inside ALL day long with two little kids. You get to leave out of the house, without little children that need to be entertained, every single day.  Okay, I digress. I think it's a real thing and I think I struggle with it.  Whether I have my husbands support or not.  So there! :) Whatever it was, I gained 5 pounds from it.  So anyway I've gained 10 pounds already, so sue me.  I'm actually not worried about it at all it is just slightly depressing.  We women work hard to get back to pre baby shape after each baby.  It is hard to watch it all just slip away. 
That brings me to another topic, my workouts.  Oh my workouts.  Boy did I take a strong, healthy body for granted.  Like I said weeks 6-10 were probably the hardest.  I have learned how to deal with my sickness in the mornings by making sure I eat something before.  I am used to working out on an empty stomach so this has been an adjustment.  The running has been okay.  I mean, I haven't been doing a ton of it but I have been doing something.  The weights though, holy cow, they exhaust me so quickly.  I have lost a lot of strength.  And the nice people that commented on my arms, well, they're gone.  Yes, it is kind of depressing. 
Anyway, I am still planning on doing Ogden half marathon so I am training for that.  I have done a few long runs (10, 11 milers) and I have done okay so I think I will survive.  I'm definitely going for survival on this one, not speed at all. I have never had to start using honeystingers (delicious energy chews if you aren't familiar) so early in runs before.  Usually I can run 10 miles easy without using any additional energy.  Not now, I'm, like, popping honey stingers at mile 3.  Pathetic really but apparently this little nugget needs a lot of energy when I'm exerting a lot.  Makes sense, I guess. 
*Random side note.  Have you noticed how much detail I have to include?  Yeah, I have a hard time keeping it short.  Which is another reason I have a hard time getting up the energy to blog.  It takes forever.  I really need to cut things down.  I have a hard time, I want details!!

My kids have been so, so, so patient with me.  I am so glad that kids are so resilient.  In those hard weeks there were days I hardly got out of bed.  They were so sweet.  Getting me drinks, tickling me, just awesome.  We just laid in bed together and watched movies, read books, etc.  We made it through and for that I am very grateful.  My house struggled through that time.  When Dan got home from work I would go straight to bed.  I didn't want to read, I didn't want to watch shows, I just wanted to sit and stare.  It's weird, I know.  I had a hard time falling asleep because I felt so sick so I would just lay and stare and veg.  It's weird but that's how it was.  So glad that my energy has been picking up.  I still have good days and bad but the good are definitely more then the bad.  Yippee!! I just have to make sure I don't get too hungry or I get really sick. 
I am 14 weeks along and feel very blessed to have gotten pregnant so quickly.  My due date is October 10th.  We aren't going to find out what we are having.  But I will say that both Dan and I have felt like our next child was going to be a girl before we even got pregnant.  I really would be shocked if it was a boy but I am keeping my mind open because it is still very, very possible.  Fun surprise, huh?! Okay, I think that's long enough now.  Check back soon, I really am going to try to get better.